Prom and such.

WELL, last night was my sister's prom and everything with everything that was going on and how "big of a deal" it was, I was SO SO thankful that I hadn't gone to my prom last year. I would've end up getting really angry and fed up with everyone and end up alone at the end of the night.

So before the Prom we gathered at my sister's friend's house. There is when we took pictures and what not, got all hibby-gibby, wait for the Limo and then all said goodbye. It was interesting actually to watch everyone get in and drive away. I kind of wanted that feeling of getting in a Limo and going to a fancy party and what not but I wouldn't want all the bullshit stuff that goes along with a Prom as well. Oh well, she came home and said she had a good time. My mother and I were slightly concerned with the way she treated her date (who drove all the way from Vermont just to go to the prom with her) she basically "ditched" him when they got to the prom and when we confronted her about treating him with such rudeness she simply stated that he's "weird." So that makes being rude to someone because they're a bit different ok? Kids these days have no respect to people. It's a bit upsetting really.

Well that was that day. I hadn't gone to school either because I knew no one was going to be there, so I didn't bother. For some reason I'm starting to hate all of my "friends." All of them, to me, just irritate the living hell out of me. They wouldn't even have to do anything irritating, just their mere existence was annoying to me. Isn't that ridiculous to feel about people who are your friends? I think so. Maybe I'm just getting so tired of the same people everyday. I'm not one to take friends seriously. Its not like other people, where as when one of their friends goes missing or stops talking to them for a little while, they go all out loopy. Friends just aren't that big of a deal to me. Or maybe that's because I haven't found the right friends to take to heart yet? Which is most likely the reason. I mean, I know I'm slightly cold hearted, but that NOT cold-hearted (: I suppose it's because I don't really take friends that go to my school seriously. They're a bit more like acquaintances, people to hang with when there's no one else. I can't help feeling that way, it's just how I feel.

I'll give you an example of someone that I'm irritated with right now. My one friend (who, as always, shall remain nameless) is hanging around with another woman who I despise and I HATE when my friends do that. Am I wrong for doing so? I talked to my other friends about this and they say that I'm being a bit harsh and a baby, yet I spoke with my sister about this whole ordeal and she said I'm not wrong in the slightest bit, and that me ignoring my friend for a little while, is perfectly fine. I also spoke to other friends outside my school and they also agree with me and my sister. So I going with their views on it. I'm not doing anything wrong and it's perfectly fine to be irritated with someone who is, supposedly, your friend and is hanging out with someone you hate with all your heart. I mean, say this situation to yourself and ask yourself, am I really being unreasonable? I don't think so in the slightest bit. So if my friends in school think I'm being a bit unreasonable and a baby and so on and so forth, then they can kiss my ass. I cannot stop feeling what I'm feeling just so someone doesn't want me to be angry with them. That's like asking someone to fall out of love with someone just like that .:: snap::.

I haven't been writing on this site in a while and I sure wish I did more. It helps me sort of my ideas and thoughts so I don't make decisions based on emotions, and, like always, make a fool out of myself and end up doing something I'll regret doing later.

That's all going on for now. Hope to write another entry soon.