My little experiment that I recently have concocted went out with a bang (literally). The amount of attention I received from that bulletin was amazing. Let me debrief you all of what the initial plan really was:
I had conducted an experiment consisting of a very (very) controversial bulletin involving someone with an illness in my school that could be life threatening. I didn't think it would even get to school because I have no one from my school on my myspace friend list because most of my friends live in Manhattan. BUT..it did get to school, and all went crazy. I was attacked by some stupid girl at lunch (who will remain nameless) that didn't know what she was talking about the entire time and I often had to stop mid-sentence just to process what she was saying. She contradicted herself, and was ugly and had the most obnoxious back-side I've ever seen in my entire life, but regardless, it was just a comical moment. I often thought how funny it would be to see this thing yelling at me from the other end of the lunch room aha. Afterwards, stuff went on like this for about a week and then died down. There were threats made against me, physically and verbally, people that I didn't know were talking about it. I was like, a celebrity really. The only thing about those whole scenario is how disgustingly fake the principal was about it. (let alone all the built up emotion I have with her for turning the school into a soft-core Nazi concentration camp, where you can't even move an inch in the hallway within getting in trouble for it). But my goal in this experiment was not to try and get attention or something childish in manner like that (I'm way too mature to stoop that low) my goal was something even more, something a bit socially argumentative, if you will.
Another thing that I find comical was how serious everyone was taking it. What the bulletin said, I didn't even feel that way. It was all completely absurd and out of context. I just took the most random thing in my mind and typed it in and sent it out. Even after being summoned to the principals office and having these rounds with people in the lunch room, I didn't give up. I still kept up the act. I couldn't back down now that the experiment was really getting up and taking effect. I almost felt like a scientist in a laboratory, examining his specimens at the peak of their actions. Not to sound too manipulative, but I felt like a puppeteer; every move the characters did were at my command. I wanted to see how far this thing would really go.
My main goal in this experiment was to see how much people REALLY cared about what other people think about them. Have you ever thought of how much other people shape us to be who we are? For example: With my experiment it was amazing how many people it had effected and bothered to the point that physical threats were made. Over a myspace bulletin? I couldn't fathom it. It was like I was the King of England or something, where as whatever I was to say had to go and had to matter. I would just sit and think about this whole ordeal and just think "why do these fools care about what I had to say?". I couldn't come up with any answer. Was it because of how controversial it was? Or was it just, because it was ME, that it mattered so much? Or could it have been that people just, like I said before, care way too deeply to what others think of them? Or was it simply just "mean" and "hurtful"? (The stupidest answer I think) Personally, I think it was the secound-to-last one. Because I see it like this, if someone else was to post the same bulletin about me, I asked myself, how would I feel? And I answered myself: I wouldn't care. Simple. But is that just me? Well, I have no idea and probably will never know.
I thought about this for a while within a week or two after this experiment took place. I came up with the conclusion: How much anger and violence and hatred could we all stop if we simply, stop caring about the thoughts that run through others heads'? Their not in your head, why bother about them? Just simply go on with your life. Worry about you and your loved ones. Maybe even their opinions about you won't matter as well. Sure we might all feel the need to get back, get revenge or feel angry or resentful. But it all comes down as to whether or not you care. Think about these things for a moment when something similar happens to you (hopefully not something I went through because I don't think any other person could've gone through that) but something like drama at school, or jealous boyfriends/girlfriends. See what happens when you try not to care about others who aren't worth to be bothered. Maybe something great'll happen and you'll finally be able to cope with life's curve balls a little better. Or maybe you'll hate it and just even get more angrier within even attempting to "not care". I recommend trying it and seeing what happens, but the choice it up to you.
Remember; when you don't try, you'll never know if you like it or not. (:
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