Ok, some things certain people are doing currently in my life are pissing me the fuck off. It seems that everything is irritating me these days and I really just need to rant about them on here for a few paragraphs or so. I really don't care if these people read this either, the truth needs to be told.
First of all, I will talk about how people randomly switch personality moods REALLY quickly? Like, so quickly that it makes you start to wonder how they made it this far in life without medication? One moment, you'll want to talk to me and want to hang out and blah blah, and get together. They'll be texting me all the time and saying how they can't wait to get together and it's been so long. So after that little family-type reunion, you think "oh, I guess this 'friend' is really cool and stuff and I have nothing to do right now, so why not just text them?" So you go to text them back, and the entire mood changes. They're replying with one-word texts, everything is very vague and not specific. And I'm just sitting there, confused as fuck, and have no idea what the fuck is going on. Has this ever happened to anyone? This isn't the first time something like this has happened with the same person, it's been multiple times. I remember one time they were being very blunt. I sent a text message saying like "Hey, whats up?" you know, basic etiquette and such. And then I'll here my phone ring that I have a new message and the reply is a FUCKING QUESTION MARK. Wha? Huh? Are you kiddin' me!? Excuse me? I just really want to know if this specific person has any kind of mental disorder in their family, or if they are mentally disturbed in anyway because I'm at a blank. At this point in time, after all of these events, I am simply confused out of my mind! Like, are you serious? Fer real? You're really going to say shit like that after we just had a fun little Brady Bunch reunion a few days or weeks ago? I'm just really dumbfounded! Like, I can see if they were doing something important or they were driving etc. but you would think that if they were doing any of those the reply's would just be short and not RUDE. I can go on and on about this for hours, but I really don't have the time. You guys basically get the general idea though. Sometimes humans baffle me.
Something else that gets me, almost more than the what I stated above, is how people say that they want to hang out and then never do anything about it? Now, this might seem similar to what I was talking about previously, but the situation that I'm stating right now doesn't have anything to do with the person/people being rude. They just don't say anything. It does seem similar but at least these people aren't being rude and I actually have a good feeling that they're being real and really want to hang out and aren't just trying to make conversation. But this particular phenomenon really bugs me because I really really want to hang out with these people that never seem to step up to what they say they want to do! It's always the really interesting people that I've recently met and that we have a lot in common with each etc etc and I just would really like to discuss things with them and see their opinions on different events and interests. Is that too much to ask? It frustrates me enough that I barely have any friends that share similar interests with me, now that I've finally found some people that I can relate to almost everything with, you're going to bail out on me? Why did you even suggest hanging out in the first place? Just to be nice? Like, I don't see the logic behind it. If you aren't serious about what you're suggesting to me, then don't say it! I take everything everyone says to me, to heart. I always think people are being serious. That's one of the reasons I don't like sarcasm and think it's degrading and childish. Like, come on now. We're all adults now. Imagine going up to a co-worker and suggesting to have dinner some time this week, and you just ignore it later on? You'd probably eventually be the person no one wants to make plans with in the future.
Alright now, this particular scenario in my life has gone on recently. It's about me and a very good friend of mine who recently has been engaging in sexual activities with someone else for the first time and they're 18 years old. When I say sexual activities, I mean just kissing and making out and nothing else. So anyways, this person usually comes to either me or another good friend of mine to confine in to tell what she has recently done. And I'm cool with that because I remember how exciting and also scary it is to experience that "closeness" with someone else. So at first I'm listening and giving me opinion and so on and so forth, but I notice that when she is telling me what she has done with this other individual, it's almost like she expects some kind of "WOW OMG" reaction out of me? like she wants me to be like surprised? or in shock? She also makes it out to be this BIG GRAND THING! Every time she brings up the subject with me I'm thinking like "omg, she must've done something bad this time. Oh my god, did she have sex?" etc etc. Until, she tells me what she has done and my reaction in my head is "oh.....ok." Like, to me it really isn't that big a deal and I don't know why she thinks it is to tell me in such a dramatic way. I'm expecting something huge but instead I get something common and amateurish. It's like we're all in 6th grade again telling each other the taboo things we've done at a sleep over party or something, this is not normal college teenager conversation. The only logic explanation I have to why she's telling me what she has done in such a dramatic why, is that because it's her first time and she's never done anything like that before. But you have to ask yourself why you would think I would be surprised about stuff like that in the first place? We're all 18 and grown adults. We've been kissing and making out with other people since Middle School. It is just very confusing to me why, especially me with that stuff that I have done with others, you would think I would be surprised and shocked? Is it because it's you and you're known for being very private and not engaging in activities like that? I honestly will never know unless I ask the person myself, but I wouldn't know how to bring it up without coming at her in a somewhat hostile way in what I was saying. Oh well.
Now I will discuss something directly related to what I was discussing above. How this same friend had the nerve to say "I don't believe you" after I told her that I have done bad bad things (sexually) with people. Huh? Wha? Excuse me? I just tried to make you feel better by saying I have done more worse activities with other individuals, so that you wouldn't feel bad or feel dirty, and you're going to call me a liar? What the fuck? Seriously? Who would lie about things like that? Especially when they're not good things to be lying about. It's like lying when someone asks you if you wiped your tooshie after going number 2 and you said "no" but you really did. It is the same exact thing. Like, come on. Really? Why do you think that's a lie? Do you think that I could never "GET WITH" a lot of people? Oh my, let's not go there because I'm not a vain person, but I will brag when I need too. All you need to know is that I get what want, with people and with items ok? That's all you need to know. It's not like I need to try either, people come to ME, I don't chase after them. So if that is what you're thinking, that I can't get with anyone, then PLEASE think again. I also don't know if it was just because you're starting to feel big and bad just because you made out with some slightly overweight Asian emo kid. Like, I could see if it was like Cole Mohr or something but you went and got it on with a rump roast, it was no thanksgiving turkey. That's another thing, everyone that I have ever been with was hot and fine as hell. I would show pictures but I like to keep my sexual and relationship separate from my social friend life because I don't like mixing the two. Personally, I would not feel like it is a good thing to spread around information like that because I would be embarrassed, but if you're not embarrassed that's fine. I really don't know what the deal is with all this that happened. It just really offended me that someone could call me a liar when I told them something BAD that I have done to make them feel better about themselves. I really just don't understand what was going through her mind. I don't know if it was an ego boost from the rump roast. I don't know if it was the delusion that I can never get with a lot of people. I just don't know, but what ever it was it pissed me the fuck off and it's a shame that I didn't address it right there because I'm way too nice of a person.
Just some current issues that are happening with my life. This is really poorly written but that's ok because it's just a rant. Hope someone can relate to these situations in their life.
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